Just turned 40 and just finished the 3 month wait after fibroid removal (5 ). I underwent fertility testing but all my levels are ok. My husband SA showed low motility (25%) but very high sperm count. My RE told me that I only have 1-2% of conceiving naturally due to my age. She did not recommend a natural iui since the success rates are so low and I will be wasting my money. My best bet was fsh with iui (10%) or ivf (33%) for success. Needless to,say I just went into my car and cried.
I have saved some money but hubby tells me why are you going to waste on a crapshoot and no guarantee? While having a family has always been high on my list, my husband admitted that it was never really his dream but he wants me to be happy. With these odds he suggested that maybe I should learn to accept this but does not want me to be depressed or crying in years to come. I got so angry at him that I just went to the bedroom and cried all night long. I feel so,alone and everybody at my job is pregnant. My friends with kids don't understand and no hubby does not want to adopt since it is so expensive.
I feel so alone and frustrated. I really feel that God has turned his back on me and I will become bitter. :(