One month yesterday (09/18) and it’s getting worst without Seka !!!

Thank you for so many messages …I am so sorry that so many of you have to go through all what my Seka went through.. I hope there is a cure for many young, older and old ladies …I lost my baby (Seka, She was a strong, beautiful young woman who has had a deep and profound impact on each life she touched. She will never be forgotten but will live forever in our hearts ) I don’t want any parents to go through what I am going through now…
I Pray for Others…I bless others in my thoughts and prayers.

I so wish I can take this away from all of you...
Love and Hugs to all,
Seka’s mom, Rada

09/10/2009
PS.I can’t think of anything but Seka. I miss her smile I miss her hug I miss her kiss, I miss seeing her getting her kids ready for school… and all little things she did … I am so sad....my heart is aching.....tears are coming down my face… I wish NO ONE have to go through what my baby went trough.. it was tuff...It is especially hard when her 4 year old cry to me “I miss my mammy I want her beck”…It is killing me ... I remember her words tiling me “I am so sorry mom for making your life miserable “
Healing hugs to all, Rada

09/19/2009

Hallo, I have been thinking about you ladies, It is so hard to talk about Seka. I know I need to get together with people that loved her, I miss her so much, tears are coming down my face as I am writing this. I finally got the courage to go on the 17th to see counselor at the Living Well Cancer Recourse Center, she is young and was very nice… we talked about Seka and my feelings now and how to deal with everything going un... She recommended some books for me to read, I’ll see her again next Thursday . I will also try support group that starts on October 8th . …and it goes on for 12 weeks… I just can’t except what happened, she told me that is normal way people feel and the first year is most difficult time, I do know that…I am still so angry at the doctors at the Hospital and the way she was treated , it feels like they did not care at all… she was just one more case for them…more money in their pocket.
I am angry that Seka is not here, that her kids are left without their mommy, Counselor told me I am grieving for her kids too . I don’t know what I feel anymore I am just angry and miserable....My thoughts and prayers are with all of you still struggling for survival. I hope for a cure in our lifetime.

I know I have a friends in you ladies!!!
Love, Rada