running out of time? NOT!!!

I recently was doing some self evaluation on my will power, and setting dates, as to when I will ahve the weight that i gained from quitting smoking , back off.

Now, I always have toted NOT to set a deadline. Liek by the clas reunion or a wedding becasue what happens AFTER that date comes and goes????

I set for myself a goal in Jan. of this year. its when I found this site. It was right before my 40th borthday that was throwing me for a loop. That this year woudl be my healthiest. I would quit smoking. learn to exercsie and hopefully learn to like it. Well for the most part I have achieved them. I ma in no way saying that the additional 15 pound weight gain since becoming a non-smoker 11 weks ago is helathy...by any means. but I ma healthier all around even with a that 15 pounds on.

Now..that is not to say I hate that the weight is on, and i have muffn top over my jeans again...and all the psycological things that weight on does to you. just to clarify that.

heres what I ma getting at. I wanted to ahave this weight off before my 41st birthday to COMPLETELY achieve my goal for my 41st year on this earth. it seemed reasonable. basically a pound a weeek till the end of Jan. then soem pointed out about the error of my thinking. (the date thing, I mentioned earler) and I thought about it, and journaled and re read my thoughts on this.

here is what I cam e uup with. I recently did a 10k. I needed ot train. I needed ot start slow and build up resistance and strength to do it. Well I have been in a poor motivational state with eth ewatching of what I was eating. i then applied the 10k training to my eating. Start...START (being the key word) and work yself up and eventually back to where I was prio to quitting. and keep that goal of my birthday and the weight off as hte dangling carrot in front of me.

cuz if I could walk power walk 3.5 miles a day, 5+ days and still weight train and eat healthy and orgainc....while smoking a pack a day... i can't weight ( misspelled on purpose) to see how I am gonna feel by the time this next birthday rolls around.

I want all my nice clothing that I had finally built a nice wardrobe up, to fit as its supposed to and not like a sausage casing. That is my goal. I already know what my New Years resoltuion is for 2101...be fit and healthy. and thats what it will be 2011, 2012 and so on.Beth

So here is to goals, and will pwoer, and invisioning that I can do this! bEth