I began having back pain ,leg pain and burning in my 20's. I am now 40. During my pregnancy of my 2nd child my pain increased dramatically. I could do hadly anything. I gained 50 pounds. My child is nearing her 4th birthday and here I sit, still with the 50 pounds. I have 2 herniated disk in my lower back, bone spurs in my neck and the nerves in my hips are pinched. All of these conditions are worse when you are overweight. Yet, it hurts to exercise, so it is a circle I continue in. I tried Weight Watchers last year and lost 10 pounds then quit. I get frustrated by how slowly the weight comes off. I tell myself things like, 'what difference does it make. I might as well eat what I want I won't lose weight anyway.'
In December my 6 year old told me he didn't want me to come to his Christmas Party at school because I was fat. He said some of the kids make fun of fat people and he didn't want them to make fun of me. My heart broke. I cried for 2 weeks straight. Then pulled myself up and decided this had to be the year that I get healthy, not only for me but my children. I started weight watchers again, joined the gym and joined this challenge. I am going slow on the gym. 2 to 3 days a week. I was doing good with eating and then went to Bunco messed up big time and then started down my self-destructive way of thinking and ate terrible for 2 days. Today I am going to eat better and drink my water. I am going to yoga later. I am very sore today so thought it might help me feel better.
This is the first time I have ever had to lose weight like this. I feel so overwhelmed. So embarrassed when I go places. I have to fight the depression that comes along with chronic pain, much less add being overweight.
I would like to find others that have chonic pain also, who can relate with the the battle of keeping positive while you hurt so bad.