Hi all...new to this group

Hi everyone. I never in my wildest dreams thought that I would join a group like this, but I'm glad that I did. Right now, this is place I need to be. On May 18th I woke up with no hearing in my left ear. NONE, gone...completely. Went to my docs, who told me it's inner ear and I will likely have to get tubes (after the year I've had, NOTHING could surprise me anymore) so he refered me to an ENT doc to ge tthe ball rolling for the tubes. Well to my dismay I have SSHL and I was completely shocked ("you mean it's never coming back???) The ENT doc said well we're gonna see what can be done, steroids help sometimes but unfortunately it had to be shot into the inner ear which means we have to puncture your eardrum to get in INTO the inner ear. THAT WAS THE MOST HORRIBLE UNSETTLING THING I'VE EVER DONE...IN MY LIFE!! well...after having it done three times, it didn't work. When the doc declared my ear dead I was just completely done for. I've had alot happen to me this year. To start, hubby is in Iraq (and the scariest part of all this), I had Hysterectomy in march, because of the surgery, I was sent back into the hosp with multiple pulmonary embolism a week later. Have been on blood thinners since and the best part is that I had soo many blood clots that one tiny clot broke off, traveled to my ear and BAM...ruptured, resulting in the SSHL. I am SOOOO done with the year 2009. If that clot was in my ear, it makes me wonder where it REALLY intended to go??? So I DO think to myself I would rather have hearing loss, then to have suffered a stroke. So now that I've rambled on about my unfortunate pains, I would like to say Thank You for welcoming me into this group. This has been very hard for me to deal with, that's why I have to have such a good sense of humor about it, About EVERYTHING because if I didn't, I would cry all the time. And I can't do that. atleast not anymore. So Thanks again