So sick of pain today

So tired of this pain. I am so miserable today..so sad and angry, all at the same time. It hurts so bad. My pinched nerve in my back really hurting right leg, and groin and hip. Barely tolerable today so I just had to write this all down. I find that people in pain understand but no one else.. They try, but its impossible to fathom what we go through. I find it so hard to do anything now, and when I do it, it just hurts so bad. I am taking my pain pills but they don't seem to help. I read a lot on different sites, and I know that pills alone are not the answer and will only relieve some pain. I am just tired today of doing everything with pain. I want a break, and its not happening now. Maybe later, but certainly not now. I went to my AL-Anon meeting this morning as I have two children who are alcoholics. They talked about in the meeting of doing too much and taxing ourselves to the limit. I can relate so much as I expect too much of myself now, and hate just laying around. I look at the apartment, and it needs to be cleaned, and it angers and frustrates me that I can't do it now. I want to practice acceptance today but its not working.
I want someone to care about me and to help...there is no one here but the cat gals who care but can't help. So frustrating and so sad. When I had a pinched nerve a few yrs ago I was in a relationship. They did the cooking, the laundry, the shopping. Boy, its so hard to be alone and need help!!...and how many people out there fit that exactly.. I bet there are so many alone and sick...so sad!!!

That's it...I am tired of this... so tired of hurting..I am sad and angry and every emotion today!!
May tomorrow be better for you , and for me!!!

With love;
Dee