i'm supposed to be happy, but everyday it seems like life is getting harder. i haven't had food to put on the table to at least feed my 3yr. i rather strave then let my lil 1 go hungry but yet i am pregant with my 3 baby and i'm wishing i never let this happen. the father is always changing his mind about me one day he hates me the next day he loves me! this is a roller coaster of events with me n him and i feel like all my stress is effecting my preganacy so far. everyday i have contracts im only 20 wks this is way to early i''m try to not stress out so much but i got my rent i need to pay n no money to do it what so ever, my other bills that need to be paid and can't pay them. ugh im so disappointed in my self. my life is going down the drain!



