Almost Three

Well I just can't beleive it we have made it this far. I remember the day he was born like it was yesterday. I still go over it in my head sometimes wondering if I could have done anything to stop the rollercoster we have been on. We just had an appt. with his Lung doc and it went well. He took a new lung xray and said he was pleased how it looked. I so happy about that. We still have to use pulimcort twice a day which Ian doesn't alway care for but it helps so. Thinking back to the begining how I prayed everyday for more time and hopeing he would make it. the fight will every issue . The lung disase, the rop in both eyes, the kidney failure and brain bleeds that went away. So much stress.

I read the storys on here and wish I could give more hugs to everyone.. I have lost two babies but I have 4 now one I got in marriage but he's mine now. After everything I went threw with Ian I feel old sometimes but I know that god wanted to to go threw this for a reason with was not always clear. I know some people get mad and I don't blame them. This is the hardest thing to go threw. I feel blessed . Now I still worry about him getting sick and I still make sure he is breathing at night. I know that others are going threw so much more then he is but well you know it only takes one good germ to send you to the hospital these days.

My little 25 weeker is a strong willed little boy. Still doesn't sit still not even in my stomach did he. Now he still needs his speech and a little op still but he doing great over all.