The house will empty out in September as youngest daughter leaves for college. I'll take her there, and dread coming home to the dog, the cat, and the quiet.
I have been parenting solo for the last sixteen years. Work and the kids dominated my time. Now the choas of parenting is going to yield to the dull painful day to day of life with stage iv cancer.
Not working now because of the medical issues. Living in a community where most all are partnered and active. I was active too. I did marathons, enjoyed my running group and friends. Now, ninety days after my last chemo, I am still so tired. My future has been taken and another put in its place. I want to move to be closer to by kids, but lack the energy and resources. Yet, I will find a way to do this. I am not sure how much time I have, but I want to be closer to the people who are meaningful to me.
Relationships and love matter. The rest is chimera.



