I will be 53 next week on Tuesday. Been on active treatment THIS time since August 2003. Got a big party planned for this Sunday. Have about 25 people coming. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOO loved. Will attend a Komen event that am, early.
Having hard time with latest treatment. Will I be able to continue working? Do I WANT to continue working?NO NO NO! But I will not qualify for disability (short term) until Nov 5 or so, pre-existing condition clause. I have yet to approach my employer, want to get some financial information nailed down. Want to go back to school..... may be able to thru Vocational Rehab. Gotta check into it.
DRAT! there are so many things to "check into", it is exhausting just thinking about it.
Is this the beginning of the end? will i have another year? I was leaving the grocery store yeasterday thinking of my mom, who did not get see my son grow up, much less meet my daughter. Oh dear, I thought, my grandchildren who are as yet unknown, will not know me. I was so sad.
But then I got mad and said NO!!!! I am sticking around, dammit.
It is a hard thing to hope for the best but prepare for the worst. I am Miss Optimistic but i am tempering that with miss reality.
AUGH!!!
thanks, i needed to get that of my chest.
I AM proud of the fact that an independent local paper (Orlando Woman) published a story i wrote about me and metastatic breast cancer.
And the mayor of Orlando declared Oct 13, Metastatic Breast Cancer Awareness Day, on my efforts.
So, on Sunday I will eat cake!!!!!
peggy