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Saying so long to David

Kim_R
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My dear David lost his battle with throat cancer on sunday july 19,2009,but I know he is having a glorious reunion in heaven with all those that have gone before him,but every day i open my eyes and he is not in bed beside me the pain gets worse and worse.We were married 26 yrs,I dont know what to do without him.I feel all alone sometimes,even in a crowd.Half of me is misssing i hope this pain eases as time goes on,i literally can feel my heart actually hurting,like its breaking

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annee2

sorry kim i really dont known what to say i feel your pain in my heart . maryann

tamjr

KIM I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I TOO JUST LOST MY HUSBAND TO ESOPHAGEAL CANCER IN THE END OF JULY. I FEEL AS IF MY HEART HAS BEEN RIPPED OUT. WE WERE MARRIED FOR 38 YRS. I HAVE HIS CREAMAINS HERE AT HOME SO I DO FIND MYSELF TALKING TO HIM A LOT. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD FEEL SO ALONE, EVEN THOUGHT WE HAVE 3 CHILDREN NEARBY. TOM WAS SUCH A GREAT GUY,I MISS HIM TERRIBLY. I HOPE AND PRAY YOU WILL BE ABLE TO FIND SOME PEACE AFTER A WHILE. TAKE CARE JEANNE MC. PENNA.

Lindakaylkw101

My sympathies and a big hug go out to you, I have not experienced this, I was the one with the cancer, but I am a survivor.

I had lost my sweet mom to cancer and it has now been 15 years, it seems that time heals, but you never forget anything.

Hugs and take care
Linda

willpower-Tom

Hi Kim

Our family is feeling the same way. I am the son of willpower-Tom and I have that same blank feeling in my hart. Each day I open my eyes the first thought is I can’t believe he's gone. I remember many times in my life hearing someone say if they could hold or hear their love one say I love you or hug them one last time. My feelings are a bit different my dad could not speak, my last time I heard my dad speak was January 15 2007 just before he went in for the surgery to remove his tongue and voice box. My most recent memories of my dad were the multiple doctor visits and treatments and the complications of the surgeries such as the drawling and such but I would give my life to have the chance to see him drawl one last time or to have the most hectic day of running from one doctor to another. Dad was operated on January 15 2007 and I lost my Job on February 5 2008. I was going to work each day for a couple of hours and using my 20 vacation days to leave early so that I could pick up my mother who does not drive and bring her to my dad's beside each day to stay by his side while he recovered in the hospital. I did not tell dad I lost my lob until he came home and was feeling better. I knew he would be more concerned for me and my family then himself. I thank god that I lost my job of 10 years as an operations manager, because the time I spent with my dad and mom going to doctors, treatments daily or weekly are the last memories I have of my dad and I would do it all over again if given the chance. However if I was given the chance I would wish my dad well not ill but if god said it could only be the way it was then I would for fit any job to take care of my dad again. I feel for my mom, my dad treated her like royalty and she is lost without him they were married 48 years in June. I am still unemployed and searching for work but now my time is shared between my family and my mother. My family and I are helping mom get her life in order and give her the support she needs to get threw each day without dad. I’m so sorry that I went off course with my reply to your post. What I wanted to tell you is your not alone I have that same blank feeling in my hart and I don’t know if it will ever go away. However I do know the last memories won’t ever go away, and if the blank feeling is a result of the memories then I don’t want the blank feeling to fade because I want those last memories to be fresh in my head till I meet with my dad again. Kim I will pray for you and your family and I hope your loss eases but the memories last fore ever. I know Dave and my dad are looking down over us and asking god to grant us peace.

Thanks
Willpower-Tom’s son
(Tom)

grdnr

Dearest Kim, I fear your outcome, and feel pain for your lose.If words could ease your pain I would write you a book. I pray daily for my Bob that his battle with this hidous disease, but know that day by day nothing is certain; every day is a gift.
All who have gone before you have words of wisdom. I will simply say that my heart and prayers go out to you and your family, and my wish is that you will feel Gods arms around you. Indeed they are there.
With love, Nan

ixtapacheryl

I am soooo sorry to hear of your loss. My dear husband of 31 years passed away on 4/4/09 after one year of diagnosis. It is so hard to be alone as I'm sure you feel as well. Just know they are no longer in pain. That's my saving grace.

ixtapacheryl

Oh Tom - my heart goes out to you and your family. Reading your post I had tears running down my face. I lost my husband on 4/4/09 after a year battling cancer at the base of his skull. I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. He fought a good fight and I miss him terribly. I too would do it all over again if I had the chance.

Good luck in finding a job and know that your Dad loved you so much for what you did for him.

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