Tell me.

tell me,
where did it go,
the hopes that i had
the belief,
that all would be well.
when did it get replaced
by memories, distant, not quite real,
of rainbows and sunlight,
stardust glittering on the snow.
Midnight walks alone,
the Moon and the Stars,
white on black,
watching eternity disappear,
i have been waiting forever.
for what?
tell me.
i dont know
who i am.
what do u see?
tell me.
what is real?
what is a dream?
my existance is nothing.
eons and oceans.
i am but a particle,
too small to see.
will it matter in the end
that i gazed at the Stars,
loved passionately,
lost it all.
was it for nothing?
because if that is so,
then nothing matters.
if i believe that,
then i try for naught.