REALITY CHECK

well, as i sit here with my freddy, (my adopted basset hound)....i think about all i read and where i am.

i feel ok,,,i have neuropathy in my right leg and in both hands....but i figure, so be it,,,,i can deal with it, and i'm still mowing the grass and not pushing it up.
.....and thats all we can hope for...

many of my friends here have had to deal with terrible things and i can relate to you all, and i try to reach out to you.

i have my 3 month check up in 3 weeks and i'm not looking forward to it,,,,actually its 4 months, my god send doctors at dana farber/brigham and womens had me in every week for a month after my RC....they know their shit. so...i know how lucky i am.

my friends say "wow"....you look so great...but they can't see inside me and know my issues.....and they don't need to know.....i need there positive energy more!!

so at 8am tomorrow i take my freddy to the vet for his last shots for the year,,,,,,and i remember i need to stay alive another 10 years ....cuz he needs me too.

i try to think ...this never happened to me, but it did....and things could be worse...

there are many people here who i pray for more than me because they have bigger problems than they could ever deserve.

time for us all to get it together, and realize why we are here....i know god has me here to help me and to help anyone here i can.

hello to all who wonder what i'm doing.....well......i'm living.....and its that simple....

i gave up my house, my cars , my life....and had to start over,,,,many here can relate,,,,but i never think about the bad.....i'm reborn, and given another chance, and all material can be replaced.....i still have what i need, my friends, my family, god and me.

i'm never looking at stats, never looking back, and never giving up......

beautiful fall in new england, decent fishing, beaches are good.......patriots, celtics....best time of year!

thats what its all about my friends...

peace and love

By roadrunner
Posted October 21, 2009 at 12:05 am
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Heres a squeeze and a hug for you Davey, and for Freddy too,
When we go into the Cleveland Clinic, for tests,
I look around, I see so much pain, little children in wheel chairs, many wearing head scarves, I think to myself, boy, we are so fortuneate, really!!!!
You my friend have also had much pain, you look toward the light, not the dark, I admire your spirit, for those who have much sadness I hope they will reach out as well, we can make a difference, if we have the right spirit!! AND A KIND HEART!!!
Love ya,
Davey

Ginger

By daveyo
Posted October 21, 2009 at 12:18 am
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hey jon...lotta blues,,,,,and tautog.....stripers headed for the warm waters.....a few off block island and beavertail....but the bay is so full of bait this year,,,,nothing is biting,,,,the fat bastards are all full....lol

By cat22
Posted October 21, 2009 at 12:25 am
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Daveyo, Wow, you really did write a lot tonight. It's good to hear your story again, how you feel about things, and inspiring to see you look nowhere but FORWARD. Maybe our friends prior to BC don't get us and where we are at, but our friends here do, and thank God for each and every one of them.

By the way, Ben has had neuropathy in his right foot since before his dx, caused by tumor putting pressure on his sciatic nerve. Been with him for about 8 or 9 months and I know it is terribly uncomfortable, irritating and frustrating. He is on 1000 mg of Neurontin 3 times a day, and 20 mg Oxycontin 3 times a day. Keeps the pain and discomfort manageable. What are you taking for the Neuropathy? Ben had some tingling in his hands and left foot from the first chemo but seems to have subsided. Bless you Daveyo for your positive spirit.

Cathy

By loonym
Posted October 21, 2009 at 12:26 am
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Stripers are perhaps my favorite for the pure love of sport fishing, and I've been thrilled the past few years because of their apparent remarkable comeback up here, after almost being wiped out. Because of our really screwed up weather pattern and strange currents this spring and early summer, we never really got a good run. Very disappointing.

By daveyo
Posted October 21, 2009 at 12:32 am
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jon....floating eels...late night, full moon, high tide...sitting on the boat....stripers hit.....the best my friend.....
clean em and grill em...

they were hard core this year in the bay, but i was laid up all summer.....next year, its go time

i'm glad they are back,,,,,with butter and sugar corn on the cob.....mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

By cat22
Posted October 21, 2009 at 12:32 am
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OOPs. I forgot to send hugs to you Daveyo, and also big hugs to you Cheyenne. Please don't feel left out. We love you.

Ginger: Hugs to you too!!!!

Cathy

By cat22
Posted October 21, 2009 at 1:33 am
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Ginger. I grew up eating bologna.... can't touch the stuff now. BUT, now that Cheyenne is talking snacks, and you have had yours, I'm going to have to think about having one myself.

Cathy

By cat22
Posted October 21, 2009 at 1:45 am
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Cheyenne, Daveyo. Do you guys EVER sleep? I'm on west coast time, 10:45. You guys are into the middle of the night. Then again, I don't see many posts in the early am from you, so HOPEFULLY you find a minute or two to sleep.

By lsh
Posted October 21, 2009 at 6:48 am
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Thanks for a wonderful, meaningful post Dave. You are an important part of our community. Thanks so much for being here.

Lynda

Ask your doc for a referral to PT and ask for a TENS unit treatment for your neuropathy. You can buy a unit for home...it worked for my husband.

As for the fish---we had the Bassmaster Elite tournament here last weekend. Big fun watching the "big boys" catch 50lbs. in 3 days even with bad wind. Stripers weren't weighed though, only big mouth bass.

By georgiaE
Posted October 21, 2009 at 6:50 am
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Hi Dave,

You are such an inspiration to all of us here on this site and we are all better people for knowing you . You are an example for all of us to follow. You are wise beyond your years and you remind us to all look ahead, not backwards, and never give up hope no matter what. Dave, you have helped Ed and I so much over the past few months and your positive attitude is contagious. Your words have made my day and I can't wait to read it to Ed when he wakes up. I am so glad that you are doing so well and we wish only the best for you. I am glad you have Freddy there to keep you warm and happy. Ed and I are sending you a big hug with lots of love,

Candon

By Annasvenska
Posted October 21, 2009 at 8:19 am
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Dear Dave

You are an inspiration. I can certainly understand the stress before the test. I always gets very anxious before any tests or scans.

There is something called Anodyne that some PT's use and is supposed to be quite helpful for neuropathies. You can google it to get more info.

Is your neuropathies a side effect of the chemo?

You are in my prayers

Anna

By DRB
Posted October 21, 2009 at 8:21 am
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Dave-

You said it perfectly. No of us want cancer or deserve cancer but life sometimes is not fair....we just realized that this year. To be honest, I am really scared about all of this. My husband has been so strong through it all. I know he is worried and nervous but he tells me all time....GOD did not intend for any of us to live in FEAR. We take what life deals us and we move forward....life does not stop. So I guess what I have learned the most through this journey is that life is precious....enjoy each and every day.....my husband did not get a death sentence....they took his bladder out to safe his life and we are going to rejoice and be happy and hopefully help others along the way! Just like Dave said....it's a new season (well in Houston...it's still humid and muggy) but none the less a new season and let's enjoy it TOGETHER!

Stacey

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