Faith

When I was young my family and I would go to church every Sunday and I was extremely religious. I even was in the choir and was involved in all of the church activities. There became a point in my teenage years that I began to stray and got a bad boy boyfriend. I found myself questioning if God was even real. Also my life was always fast paced and I was always on the go. I have found that since my illness that you look at things in a different light. It's not all of the material things that matter it's the people who are in your life that matter. I also have noticed that the little things mean so much to me now like the sound of my childrens laughter, the feeling of grass on your bare feet, the feeling of the sun and wind on your face, the smell of the flowers in my garden. Recently I found myself wondering about God again. I took him back into my heart. It was very emotional for me, I cried so hard. I guess you just have to believe and don't question it. I don't know why this awful infection has happened to me but there is a reason. Believe me I am never going to take anything for granted ever again. This whole thing is so life altering. Someday I'll be better and looking back on this. It can't last forever. I sometimes will read other peoples entries and I pray and my heart goes out to all of you! I pray that all of you get better and feel no more pain!! Thanks to all of you for all of your love and support.