Today is Tuesday mom was moved from the hospital to skilled care on friday after a week stay at the hospital. The plan was to do physical therapy and get her strength back. He cellulitus (Sp?) in her leg seems to be doing better and the swelling, but she's not eating she is starting to rattle...he urine is so dark...her legs are mottling (sp?). I know she's near the end! Its so hard to watch but i'm not leaving her...... i wouldn't forgive myself if i wasn't here. We wanted to get her home for hospice "the end" but it doesn't look like thats gonna happen. I think the move would just make her miserable. She went from talking having conversations on sunday to bearly being able to stay awake to tell you what she wants. This morning she told me... "i need to get outta here" and "do you hear that baby crying?" The doc said there is no rush for family to get here!? i Disagree... I watched my grandma die in hospice almost two years ago. I know god only knows when its time but i'm so scared to leave!!!!



