Emotional Rollercoaster

Here is what I hate about ALS. Just exactly that! I hate that ALS makes me hate. I hate that it makes me feel powerless and I don't even have the damn disease!! I try to encourage my brother to do the things that are recommended and prescribed for him to do. When I asked him if he had started physical therapy he responded with "I don't think it will do me any good". Oh? I don't recall him ever going to medical school and I don't think he stayed at a Holiday Inn Express last night! The time is NOW to do these things, not later. But how? How do you get someone who won't help themselves to do these things? I hate it and I am angry. I probably shouldn't write this because it makes me sound whiney. But I need to vent. His wife can't do everything and he is still very much capable. I am 2 states away otherwise I would drag him kicking and screaming if I had to. So. What do I do? I guess I go back and read that page in my Going Bonkers magazine that says it's not my problem. I can't change it if he won't change it. Hate is such a useless emotion. So what constructive emotion is there when it comes to ALS? I know the 7 stages of grief by heart. Those don't help. I beg him to watch the Rob videos on YouTube. The ones in the ALS Sucks series. I can't even get him to do that. Neither can his wife. Rob is so encouraging. What do I do? I feel like a sinking ship. Well, thanks for listening. I feel like I have a family here and I deeply appreciate that. So many of you are so positive, enlightening and encouraging. Through tears I give you smiles and hugs.