Hey Everyone--
I haven't written in quite a while so I thought I would and update everybody. When last we spoke I think I had just started my tube feedings which were going well. Well, fast forward to now and I ended up getting MRSA first in my J-tube and then it spread to my port. So, as a result I had both taken out last week. So now I am back to square one with nothing but myself and trying to regulate and find some kind of diet that I won't throw back up, trying to keep my pills down without throwing up because I don't have the port to do IV meds anymore and to deal with the daily constant pain I am in, not only from the gastroparesis but also from my Lupus. As you can tell I am not faring too well. I have lost about 70 pounds in the last three months, which in some ways is okay because I was overweight, but still the way I am losing it is not healthy. When I was in the hospital fighting the most recent round of MRSA, they tried giving me Ativan for the nausea and it was like a miracle drug!! Now I know it is addicting so that is why my doctors are reluctant to give it to me, but I swear it worked better than any of the anti-nausea drugs I have been taking for years. So, I am going to call my GI doc tomorrow and ask him to prescribe it to me. At this point if I get addicted, so be it--I would rather be able to eat like a normal human being and not throw up everything. My other disappointment is that my insurance company has denied the gastric pacemaker surgery--twice now. It is now in the hands of a separate company that reviews denied files for Medicare--supposedly they don't work for Medicare--but I don't know if I should look into getting a lawyer at this point or not. I have been told by my doctors that I have no other options left open to me at this point and I certainly can not live out the rest of my life puking 2-3 times per day no matter what I eat. I don't know yet if the feeding tube and/or the port will be going back in because they ALWAYS get infected but if I don't have the surgery I don't think we will have a choice. Eventually my nutrition will get so poor that there will have to be medical intervention. I live in New York State (upstate)--do you guys think it is worth looking into going to the Mayo Clinic or I guess there is a big gastroparesis clinic in Kansas City also. I don't really have the money for any kind of trip like that (I am on SSD and have a very limited income) but I don't know if looking into those types of facilities should be my next step. The surgeon I was going to use to do the pacemaker surgery has been called to Iraq and will be gone until at least February 2009 so if I do have the surgery, I will need to find a surgeon out of state anyway. Again, things are not going well for me right now but the advice and encouragement I get from you guys on this site always seems to help so I thought I'd share my woes at this point. I hope that you guys are faring much better than I. Take care
Michelle



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