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Every now and then it hits. It hit tonight, big time. I wanted to call someone, but who do you call to say something like that? Who would understand how this realization can just suddenly flood over me ... all denial is gone and the raw truth is there.
I'm Stage 4, and in Hospice. It's really going to happen. Usually I feel rather calm about it, but some times it is big time panic, and that's where I am at right now. What better place to go to scream than here in my journal?
LOUD TERRIFIED SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel better already.
