I was really cranky!

The first journal I wrote was really a huge Rant! Guess I just had to get somethings out.

If I made anyone upset, sorry. I think we all have our days.

The timing of getting cancer wasn't good eventho I am really and truely impressed with all of the good that has come my way. I am so very happy that I found this site.

I don't know anyone except medical people, moved here and found out I had cancer, I loved my job and I loved the people I worked with but life has marched on, I am no longer working nor do I have the energy to work. I sought out couciling for the first time in my life but I still haven't blown like I did the first night I sat here and wrote. I haven't read what others have written, I hope i am not the only ranter out there. I am sickened by all the sick people. What an epademic!
It is such a heart break to see so many.....I am in the bunch but clearly a big part of me is not. I am still on my rant a bit. I keep myself as busy as my body will allow but as the pain rages in my back and have been taking more pain pills that aren't touching the pain for more than an hour I get cranky.

I think I will be quiet and wait for the raccoons to come into the yard and eat. Critter Joy.