My sister passed away yesterday morning at 10am. As write this it doesnt even seem real yet, just merely words. I have cried but am mostly numb and it seems like a bad dream. How could this be? How could this happen to my sister? To me? To my family? This is only stuff u see in the movies..... as u can see Im in a daze.
She isnt sufferring anymore and I am greatful for that. I do feel like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulders because now I dont spend every second that ticks by on the clock thinking about my sis in pain, worrying about her, waiting for the next tumor markers, trying to find a way to save her....Im free and so is she. That sounds terrible doesnt it? Those are my feeling though...
I loved my little sis so much. She was only 40 yrs old with a husband and two sons ages 7 and 9. I feel so awful for her family and I of course wish there was some way I could rescue them and make things all better. My poor mom and dad too.
Thank you for all of the love and sharing on this site. I dont know what Id do without you guys. I hope they find a cure! I am actually starting nursing school Jan 7th. I will get my BSN in 28 months then 1 yr masters and then get my PhD to do oncology research. I hope I am able to find cures for cancer, I wont give up just as my name is sistersnevergiveup....I am still not giving up.
Love to all of you,
Edited December 31, 2012 at 3:32 am