being here

mm well, were do you begin 22-12-08,7;15pm , i went into full cardiac arrest, and died for 1min 47 secs , for me a true miracle as i was laying in emergency room being poked and prodded as my heart was in arythemer,not know to anyone was i had a narrow main artery probably from birth , as my heart struggled a blood clot found its way to my heart and wham it stopped,, anywhere else or delaying getting to the hospital , i would be now a memory to my family , ok ,, so now i,m here and feel strange about it all i do not know how to feel , i,m medicated , i,m deppressed , i,m angry , why do i feel this way i should be over the moon , and i m , i,m looking for anyone who has been through this , odd thing is i never smoked dont drink the odd beer or glass of wine , never taken drugs , not overweight ,, feel a bit ripped off , and i know i shouldnt ,perhaps its all the medication ,, cheers