I've been having a "bad" week. I always reflect before my birthday..just something I do. A lot has happened in a few short months. In August I was diagnosed with CHF. And May 14th I had a stent put in. Since the day my doctor stood at the foot of my hospital bed and said..."if you don't change your life, you will die", I have done everything the doctors said..not one drop of caffeine, low salt, low fat diet. And I have lost 50 pounds to date. I've gone through the depression of feeling as if my body let me down. And I decided I don't want to die. But this week...I have been eating things I shouldn't...I've been ANGRY....I've been edgy and down right mean. I have a VERY stressful job and I just want to scream at people on the phone. I don't know why I'm doing this...and I don't know what went wrong. Today is my birthday and we will see how today is. I have to work. And Monday, I start cardiac rehab. Maybe that is what I need to start moving forward again.
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- By Lynnedz56
- Posted June 27, 2009 at 8:10 am · 7 replies
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- By Winglover
- Posted June 27, 2009 at 11:14 am
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Happy birthday! Everyone is entitled to a "day off" from good behavior. Don't be so hard on yourself. Maybe you are nervous about starting your cardiac rehab Monday? Something new? Hang in there!
- By kimberly46
- Posted June 27, 2009 at 11:58 pm
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Happy birthday to you!! and also want to tell you
that I admire you for every thing youve done for your self! I still eat bad on and off but mostly I try to watch my diet but to me its still not like I should eat! But you have to have days where you just let go once in a while!!Be proud of your self for all youve accompished. I quit smoking now for almost 4 mon. and Im proud of myself for that and never thought I could do it! I think you will do great!! Take one day at a time.......Take care!!!
- By lvfrogs
- Posted June 28, 2009 at 8:18 am
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Happy Birthday!!! It sounds like you have done a wonderful job of changing your lifestyle and congrats on the weight loss too. You said you have a stressful job, no wonder you had a bad week. As women, you know how our emotions can be, all over the place, so hopefully, you have recovered from that week and will move on. Don't beat yourself up about it. I am glad you are here to celebrate another birthday!!
Hope you feel better today,
Colleen
- By NewAllie
- Posted June 28, 2009 at 12:11 pm
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Happy Birthday. It seems to me that one of the things that might have led up to all my heart issues was my own reluctance feel and express anger; to work in constant stress and believe I still was never doing enough; to beat myself up at every opportunity and never give myself a break. You deserve a break, even a little psychotic break if you need one. It's your party and you can be mean if you want to. Love, Allie
- By grace5
- Posted June 28, 2009 at 12:20 pm
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Happy Birthday!!!!
I 2nd (3rd 4th and 5th) everybody who replied, all that has been said is all that needs to be said. Be kind to yourself, you're doing great.
Good luck on Monday, let us know how it went!
Hugs,
Lidia xx
- By Ecksunbeam
- Posted June 28, 2009 at 1:30 pm
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Dear Lynne,
And guess what? You are actually having a birthday! Na-na-na-na-a-a-a-a-a-na . . .
HAPPY! HAPPY! Celebrate your life!
I agree with everyone else; give yourself some slack. We all fall off the wagon. You've been doing good! I have yet to meet a bonafied Saint living on this earth. Were you planning on breaking that record?
May the Blessings Be!
Sherrie
- By Rose
- Posted June 29, 2009 at 10:29 am
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Lynne,
I agree with the others, you are entitled to a bad day or week. I think certain things bring back all our bad memories and your birthday reminds you that you are lucky to be here but you have had to make changes that may not be to your liking. I think the first year is the hardest. After that most of us have accepted (not liked) that things will never be like they were before heart problems but are glad to be alive.
You weight loss is amazing. I struggle with that all the time.
Do something special for yourself for your birthday. I hope you like cardiac rehab.
Warm Regards,
Rose
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