My heart was taken from me yesterday, & I helplessly have no way of getting it back. Mike's life, as we knew it, was taken from him yesterday. Mike went into cardiac arrest yesterday morning, & although there was a lengthy effort to try to save him, we didn't get the result we so overwhelmingly desperately desired. I've loved Mike with all of my being, more than ANY words could ever express, & will miss him every single minute of the rest of my life that I'll no longer be able to share with him, MY BEST FRIEND EVER!!!!! My life has been SO VERY blessed for having him as I did, & although there are no words possible to express the deep grief & mourning that I'm feeling for losing him, I'll be FOREVER eternally grateful for the love he reciprocated to me. There will never again be such a great & wonderful man as Mike. He's been loved by every person who's ever had the pleasure to meet him. Although our wish was for his pain to leave his body by means of recovering his health, nevertheless, he is no longer in pain. I thank all who ever cared about Mike, for all who've known him have known he cared deeply for everyone else. Nomatter how he felt, he never hesitated to ask everyone else, "How are YOU doing?" I don't know how I'll EVER be able to say good-bye to him. Rest in peace, my beloved babe.
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The world has lost the most wonderful man
- By KathleenO
- Posted April 8, 2009 at 10:37 am · 72 replies
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- By Deb47
- Posted April 8, 2009 at 11:06 am
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Kathleen,
I just joined yesterday and read your post. My deepest sympathy goes out to you and your family. I have not experienced a loss as great as my husband so I certainly do not know how you feel. The one thing I do know is that God is with you and is not going to let you go even though it may not feel that way right now. I also know that Mike will always be with you and that when you are called to go home, Mike will be waiting for you with open arms.
Warmest Regards,
Debbie
- By merylee
- Posted April 8, 2009 at 11:08 am
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Kathleen, I am so sorry for your loss. I know Mike is pain free and feeling well. Love transcends death and he will never leave you.
- By robinwd
- Posted April 8, 2009 at 11:46 am
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Kathleen, please accept my deepest sympathy on your loss.
- By robinwd
- Posted April 8, 2009 at 11:46 am
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Kathleen, please accept my deepest sympathy on your loss.
- By bayrealtor
- Posted April 8, 2009 at 12:08 pm
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Well said Debbie!
Kathleen, we can feel the love you have for Mike in your words. I am sure he knows as well. You will be together again but for now you can take comfort in Gods arms and know Mike wants you to continue and live your life to its fullest here on earth. We are here for you and send you are love and prayers.
Take one step at a time my friend...
I just posted a comment you can read about a book that Cathy and I are reading, I would suggest it to you.
Huggs and God Bless,
Bill & Cathy
- By kq182
- Posted April 8, 2009 at 12:11 pm
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Kathleen, my deepest sympathy goes out to you, I pray that you will be able to get through the greiving process of your husband, I thank God that you had him, and cared for him during this horrible lung cancer, just know that he is pain free and you will see him when it is your time to join him. Try and take care of yourself, you are in my prayers, Karen
- By MaryRVF
- Posted April 8, 2009 at 12:35 pm
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Kathleen,, I am so sorry for your loss! may God wrap His loving arms around you and give you peace and comfort--(((HUGS))!!
Mary
- By peyz33
- Posted April 8, 2009 at 2:00 pm
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Kathleen - I am so sorry - may you find strength and peace.
Karen
- By Bertha23
- Posted April 8, 2009 at 4:37 pm
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Dear Kathleen,
Please accept my deepest sympathy and condolences. Your love for each other will survive this world.
Kelly
- By flatbeddriver
- Posted April 8, 2009 at 8:33 pm
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no words can express the feelings i have in my heart for your loss ill be praying for you
- By wife
- Posted April 9, 2009 at 12:26 am
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Kathleen,
So sorry to hear the news....
Praying that God will give you strength and peace.
- By maxgirltou
- Posted April 9, 2009 at 6:39 am
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Kathleen,
I am so sorry to hear about your husband. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Tina
- By Ragdollz
- Posted April 9, 2009 at 7:38 am
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Kathleen,
My heart is just broken for you. I have no words to put here........I just want you to know that I am sending you my love and hugs. I wish I could reach you....my arms would hug you and try to comfort you. I am so, so very sorry for your loss.
If you want to just talk or cry or scream, I am an email away. Know that you are loved and I am here for you. Your beloved was blessed to have you with him as much as you were blessed to have him. I pray you find comfort and peace.
Love,
Clorinda
allmews@gmail.com
- By KathleenO
- Posted April 9, 2009 at 9:20 am
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Welcome to Inspire, Debbie. There really are a bunch of great people here.
Thanks so much for your warmest regards and sympathy, Debbie. I know God is with me - & him - right now; but, at this time, that fact doesn't seem to console me. Mike will always be in my heart & on my mind; but, I so much do hope he'll always be with me in spirit / soul.
Thanks again for being a caring person.....
Kathleen
- By KathleenO
- Posted April 9, 2009 at 9:31 am
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Thanks Merylee for responding, & the kind words you've written to me. Love is greater than anything, & yes, Mike is now pain free. I am grateful that he's no longer suffering; but, I wish so badly his suffering was over because he got all better, & was still here with me!
Robin, thank-you also for your response. My heart is so physically aching.......
- By KathleenO
- Posted April 9, 2009 at 10:12 am
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Bill & Cathy,
I couldn't possibly have loved Mike anymore than I always have. The time I had him in my life was by far the happiest of my ENTIRE life - and I sincerely know that to be the honest truth with all my heart. I've been told by many, & knew myself as well, that Mike was also happier with me than he had ever been in his life, too. I am so very glad that I was able to provide him that happiness; but, my happiness is now GONE..... I know Mike wants my life to go on as best as possible, but I really don't think I'll ever be truly happy again, & that is such a terrible feeling.
Thanks so much for you love & prayers.
Feel free to check out a site I created for Mike: www.caringbridge.com/visit/michaeljenkins1
Kathleen
- By bluestar30
- Posted April 9, 2009 at 12:11 pm
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Kathleen,
How brutally unfair! I looked at your site, and it seems like Mike was on the road to recovery...things were looking good. Oh, you must feel so cheated. I am so sorry for you. It's like having the rug pulled right out from under you. I often wonder about Love....it hurts so much when it it taken from you...and there's the rub, was it better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all? Sometimes I really wonder. In your case, though, there must be some happiness in knowing that you were on earth to give love to the person you loved the very most. You chose well, and there is something to be said for that.
My very best to you,
Chris
- By AnnMariesdaughter
- Posted April 9, 2009 at 12:31 pm
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Oh my.........I am shocked! I am so very sorry for your loss. I don't know what to say. I am just heartbroken for you! This came out of nowhere! Just know he is in a better place. GOD BLESS YOU!
- By KathleenO
- Posted April 9, 2009 at 1:02 pm
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Karen, I appreciate you extending your sympathy, & thank-you very much for your prayers (for I SURE DO need them right now!!!). I just cannot imagine my life without him; I'm not able to vision any future without him there, with me. I did care for him so very much, & have always did for him (out of love); but, he needed me to provide him more & more care throughout this entire horrible ordeal. I'm having such a hard time coming to grips with the fact that I'll never again be able to touch him, hold him, kiss him, hug him, talk with him, etc., etc. I am trying to take care of myself, but finding it VERY difficult to do right now. Thanks again, bunches, for keeping me in your prayers. You're such a dear.
Mary, I am so sorry for the world's loss. Mike was really, truly always a very thoughtful & selfless man, & treated everyone very well. Even upon talking to strangers, he made you feel so comfortable that everyone felt he was their best friend. I have had numerous hugs the last couple days, & sorry to say that they don't really help me to feel better a darn bit.
- By Bluemoon2762
- Posted April 9, 2009 at 1:05 pm
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I am so sorry for you loss. May peace be with you.
Angie
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